Without knowing why, sometimes, out of nowhere
Thoughts like those just appear lately
You, who’s so happy and beautiful
And the us right now, who are doing well
We, who are like that
If we were to one day unfortunately separate
What should I do then
Of course, there won’t be a happening like that, but
I really don’t know thinking thoughts like these, but
I think of it sometimes, I hope that you will never think thoughts like these
Because we’re together, I’m able to smile
And because it’s you, I’m able to cry
Like this, how could there be anything I can’t do
No matter when and where you are, even if we’re unable to be together
We will always, like we have, have smiles blossom
I will become the spring to your smiles
Without holding back, I always feel like I am only receiving from you
That’s why, I’m so thankful and even more sorry
Even if I want to hug you tightly, what is this hesitation that comes
From a weariness that I don’t know about
I don’t want to be like this
Like the sky is high, the winds are cold
And the ocean is wide and blue
I’m afraid that I’ll take you for granted
Because I’m uneasy about that, I feel like I’m acting like this
Because I’m afraid I’ll lose you, I ask that you aren’t the same as me
Because we’re together, I’m able to smile
And because it’s you, I’m able to cry
Like this, how could there be anything I can’t do
This is our last
Never ever say it
I’ll stay by your side, so
Even if something really were to happen to us
We’ll always be together like we have been
“This is our last”, never ever say it
Whatever happens
We will always, like we have, have smiles blossom
No matter when and where you are
Even if we’re unable to be together
We will always, like we have, have smiles blossom
I will become the spring to your smiles
Hi, how have you been? i pray that you are fine as always. There is no any differences in my life throughout these weeks except that i've got many works and things to be done as a student and a member of a committee - its been forever like that i guess, haha. So, oh above this is a song lyrics from seventeen - smile flower/laughter. i love this song very much bcs of its lyrics and melody ofc. The lyrics circle about their thoughts on their path and friendship i think, they questioned that even they are not together someday, will they be able to smile like this? like when they are together as the lyrics go "because we are together, i'm able to smile, because it's you, i can cry" and "this is the last, don't ever say it" this song also made me reminiscing many old memories. Are they still remember me? Are they ever missed me? I always flipped over old photos with my fiends and recalled any fun/sad/happy moments. Maybe bcs i don't say it out loud but, to the lost-contact-friend, it will be nice if we recontact again. Maybe. Is it just me?
And as for now, i really appreciate those who with me no matter when it was bcs if it's not bcs of them, i couldn't smile, i couldn't cry. My tiny hope is just whatever happens, if we ever separated or anything, we could recalled our moments together and have our smiles back.
Oho, what's with that melancholy-sad-type-of-writing we have up there, haha. Lately (not that lately bcs i've always have many thoughts), i've been thinking of how should i act to people. Obviously, we act differently to different types of people. Not to be a fake but to me, not all people you can show the real you. You may go crazy with certain people, be polite and show your best side to certain people or stay introvert and shy to certain people. But the real thing is, i don't know how to approach people first. Okay i've been hearing that, "just be yourself" many times before, but is it the best just to be myself towards the people whose a stranger even though i want to be friends with them? I'm just afraid that they cannot accept me, like my behaviors or my sudden-change-moods or my craziness or my odd thoughts or my unacceptable jokes or my overly-matured mind? I think that there is at least one person will find me annoying and troublesome. And how to make they happy with me?
Oh sorry to be that overthinking me again. I have a fun story to be shared, huhu. It happened on one morning where i decided to be late to my class as the lect already informed to us that she will not be in class so whoever wants to continue with projects can go and who is lazy may continue to sleep. Me was in between, haha. As i reached the bus stop, the bus already gone so i decided to wait for the next bus. Also, what's the point of rushing, right? I sat on the bench, listening to songs, ignoring people around me. I looked at the cars passing by, mumbling my fav songs anddddd heol!(?)
My eyes stop at that one driver and continue following him. And guess what? Our eyes met! (or was it just mehhhh ;;;) I looked away smiling concealing the proof that i just saw him (lol what proof, dude) I tried searching for the car but it was nowhere, maybe he was already at the faculty. Seconds after that, my phone was ringing. Oh, not the driver's name came up tho. It's one of my classmate. I picked up. He asked me whether i was in my way to class or not and if it was true, let's go together. I was like Eh? where are you? So the car was parked after they (the driver and the caller) saw me at the bus stop. But i was like hey, i'm alone right now but he said ah, no matter bcs there are no one at the back. I was like omaigod what's happening(!!!) I sat on the seat behind the driver (i don't know why but i sat thereeee) I talked a few times and got awkward but the boys just continue with their conversation. We arrived and i said thankyou. I don't tell anyone about this even to my bestfriends tho, haha. Just how shy i was but luckily i'm cool (pls)
Little did you know that the driver is my so-called-crush(?) it's been since early this year i guess, but one of my friend already have feelings for him since 2 years ago. That's why i've been careful enough not to spill this out and broke her heart. But since i have another crush which is one year older so maybe someday i will and can see him as a friend. Well, this feeling is not permanent, right? So i don't have to worry much lol.
Have a nice day ahead!
